Times.

There are times in everyone's life that are make or break. 

Times that challenge who you are as a person and the things that you believe in.

I honestly believe that the people who HAVEN'T experienced that is missing out. It's those moments when you really take a look at who you are and why you believe in what you believe in that make you a better person... make you grow as a person. And without growth you are stagnant. Stuck in a life and the person you were when you were younger. How sad is that? I can't really imagine my life without every single time in my life that I didn't know if I would survive.... every single time in my life that I wondered if I could make it through ... Not just the DAY, but the MINUTE....SECOND.  Sometimes that's the best thing that you can do and there's nothing wrong with that. Not even a little bit.

Once in a while...

I get this feeling sometimes like I was born into the wrong family... the wrong time.... the wrong place...

Then I realize that if I were born in a different time.... different family.... different place, would I have met my husband? Would I have the same friends I do now? Unlikely. I would love to say, YES! Being born into another family would solve all my issues, but the truth is that with every family, life, and time there are issues. You can't escape them, no matter how hard you try.

New Beginnings

For months now, I've looked for the correct outlet, the right way to get my thoughts and emotions out on paper in a "constructive" way. I've tried writing, singing, painting, dancing, and so much more. Maybe I've been going about this whole "WRITING" thing all wrong. 

Maybe I need a live audience... people who can read how I'm feeling and comment on it.
Who knows... Maybe no one will even read this. 

All I ask is that this be a CALM and COLLECTIVE place. No harsh words. :)